I saw a photo of my daughter recently. She was wearing a sweatshirt and necklace that I bought her as a gift for her birthday. I was very excited to see this, because I haven’t had a relationship with my daughter, or my son, since early 2008. I thought, “she can’t be that mad at me if she’s wearing the gifts I sent her.”
My excitement was squashed when a friend of mine asked if I thought she knew the gifts were from me. This thought hadn't occurred to me. I thought “no, my ex wouldn’t do that”, but then again, I never thought she’d make good on her promise that if anything ever happened to our marriage I would never see my children again. I stayed in a loveless marriage just to be with my kids. I would be lying if I said I didn’t feel disappointed and manipulated.
So, I’ve started this blog in hopes that my children will see it and know how much I love and miss them ~ always have and always will. I will never ever give up on them, and my heart and my door will always be open and waiting, no questions asked. And speaking of questions, maybe reading this will cause them to question some of the things they have heard, or not heard, or been led to believe. They are smart kids, I'm sure they will be able to see through the fog surrounding them eventually.
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Happy Valentine's Day!
I would like them to know, and the reason for this blog is so they know, that their family and friends will wait for them, and always be there for them ~ no matter what, no matter how long, no matter how painful, no matter the tall tales that are told, no questions asked ~ when they are ready to be whole again. We all love you Bucko and CeeCee. Hope you got my cards and had a wonderful day! xox love, Dad
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Super Bowl Time!
Football was always a big deal in our family. My son has been playing since he was old enough to run and my daughter was on the cheer squad for years. We spent our Sundays with the kids growing up running from game to game because they would sometimes be playing at different fields. We did our best to see it all. I don’t think my daughter cheers any more, she’s moved on to other interests, but my son is still playing and enjoying football. Hopefully he’ll get to play on the high school team next year.
I’ve got my Giant’s Bear and I’m ready for the game. It was a gift from my kids for my 39th birthday. I keep him in my office, but this weekend he’s home with me for the party. Go Giants!!!! I’m right there cheering with you, kids….love you both very much, enjoy the game!
UPDATE: What...a....game!!! Awesome game, all the way through. G-Men all the way. I'm sure my son is just coming out of his skin. Tried to text him, but it appears my phone is blocked...bummer. My dad called me the second the game was over, was so cool! Giants rock, paint the town bluuuuuuuue!!!