I saw a photo of my daughter recently. She was wearing a sweatshirt and necklace that I bought her as a gift for her birthday. I was very excited to see this, because I haven’t had a relationship with my daughter, or my son, since early 2008. I thought, “she can’t be that mad at me if she’s wearing the gifts I sent her.”


My excitement was squashed when a friend of mine asked if I thought she knew the gifts were from me. This thought hadn't occurred to me. I thought “no, my ex wouldn’t do that”, but then again, I never thought she’d make good on her promise that if anything ever happened to our marriage I would never see my children again. I stayed in a loveless marriage just to be with my kids. I would be lying if I said I didn’t feel disappointed and manipulated.


So, I’ve started this blog in hopes that my children will see it and know how much I love and miss them ~ always have and always will. I will never ever give up on them, and my heart and my door will always be open and waiting, no questions asked. And speaking of questions, maybe reading this will cause them to question some of the things they have heard, or not heard, or been led to believe. They are smart kids, I'm sure they will be able to see through the fog surrounding them eventually.

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Father's Day 2012

I hear my childrens’ silent prayers. I feel their love, their tears, and their fears, and know they miss me and wish we could see each other and spend time together again. I wish there was more I could do to help them…to help them be true to themselves, to show them how to have the love and joy of spending time with ALL of their family, both halves, not just one half versus the other. It is easily possible, if they want it to be, but I’m sure they are not getting that encouragement or guidance from anyone allowed in their lives. It’s so sad how carefully crafted and controlled their lives are.

I know my children are hurting -- growing teens without the guidance, love and support of their father. I am and will always be here for you -- always. Loving parents never give up, walk away, push away, guilt or refuse their children. I will always be your dad, and always be here, waiting, with open arms and an open heart. All you have to do is call or stop by. In the mean time, have a wonderful Father’s Day, I’ll be thinking about you and sending love and hugs!

Be sure to check out the nice photo collage on my Facebook Page

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Sunday, June 10, 2012

June Weddings

Went to a friend's wedding last night. Both the bride and the groom's parents were both divorced and remarried, making four parent-couples to include in the ceremony. They handled it spectacularly, everyone was smiling, laughing and having a great time enjoying their children's wedding day. The Bride even had her Dad on one arm and her Step-Dad on the other arm walking her down the aisle. And the two men embraced each other and their daughter at the altar. What a lucky girl to have such a loving supportive family! I'm very happy to be surrounded by friends who are such wonderful people.
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Friday, June 1, 2012

Mets Make History ~ First No Hitter

So excited to see the Mets first no hitter! Hope my son got to watch it too. So excited I thought it warranted a post, ha ha. Johan Santana ~ you're awesome, especially after shoulder surgery, which I'm familiar with. What a feat, so exciting, I'm bouncing off the walls. Sure my son is too!
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