I saw a photo of my daughter recently. She was wearing a sweatshirt and necklace that I bought her as a gift for her birthday. I was very excited to see this, because I haven’t had a relationship with my daughter, or my son, since early 2008. I thought, “she can’t be that mad at me if she’s wearing the gifts I sent her.”


My excitement was squashed when a friend of mine asked if I thought she knew the gifts were from me. This thought hadn't occurred to me. I thought “no, my ex wouldn’t do that”, but then again, I never thought she’d make good on her promise that if anything ever happened to our marriage I would never see my children again. I stayed in a loveless marriage just to be with my kids. I would be lying if I said I didn’t feel disappointed and manipulated.


So, I’ve started this blog in hopes that my children will see it and know how much I love and miss them ~ always have and always will. I will never ever give up on them, and my heart and my door will always be open and waiting, no questions asked. And speaking of questions, maybe reading this will cause them to question some of the things they have heard, or not heard, or been led to believe. They are smart kids, I'm sure they will be able to see through the fog surrounding them eventually.

Thursday, November 24, 2011

November 2011

Happy Thanksgiving ~

So much to be thankful for this year - good report cards with honor roll, a fantastic school play, a great football season, a new home, good health, and lots of nice friends and a loving, supportive family that waits for them. Wishing my kids a very happy Thanksgiving. We all love and miss you both very much!

A Home of Their Own ~

I am so excited and happy for my kids! My new years wish for them finally came true ~ their mother bought a home for them! Now they can finally have a place of their own, bedrooms of their own, a big yard for their dog to run and play in, maybe build a little garden, and of course the privacy and space they deserve to live in. I cannot begin to tell you how thrilled I am, it makes me very, very happy to see this. Wishing them all the best and hope they have a ton of fun making their new house a home.

Happy 11-11-11 ~

Enjoy your day off kids ~ rest (perhaps) for my son but not for my daughter, she's knee deep in show time! Have a great time with the school play and all the fun special events that go with it ~ cast parties, breakfasts, dance lessons with kids. Wish you wanted me there, but I'll just think of you dancing and singing your heart out, and I'll just smile instead.

Hope my son's football season was great too and he and his team played well. Wonder if he gets a break between the season and off-season training at all. Maybe he can sleep in today, play a little Call of Duty and just chill. Enjoy, I love you. If you want to go out with the snowmobile signing crew this weekend with me, just call. It's a lot of fun (rain or shine) and there are a few kids your age on the crew!


School Pictures are in!

Oh wow...my son's school photo looks just like me when I was his age....what a handsome young man ;) I sent their photos along to their grandparents, great grandmother, aunts, uncles and cousins ~ they all loved them. The photo printer made a mistake and sent a ton of extra wallet size photos and a beautiful 8x10 of my daughter so I mailed them to her so she could share them with her friends.
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