I saw a photo of my daughter recently. She was wearing a sweatshirt and necklace that I bought her as a gift for her birthday. I was very excited to see this, because I haven’t had a relationship with my daughter, or my son, since early 2008. I thought, “she can’t be that mad at me if she’s wearing the gifts I sent her.”
My excitement was squashed when a friend of mine asked if I thought she knew the gifts were from me. This thought hadn't occurred to me. I thought “no, my ex wouldn’t do that”, but then again, I never thought she’d make good on her promise that if anything ever happened to our marriage I would never see my children again. I stayed in a loveless marriage just to be with my kids. I would be lying if I said I didn’t feel disappointed and manipulated.
So, I’ve started this blog in hopes that my children will see it and know how much I love and miss them ~ always have and always will. I will never ever give up on them, and my heart and my door will always be open and waiting, no questions asked. And speaking of questions, maybe reading this will cause them to question some of the things they have heard, or not heard, or been led to believe. They are smart kids, I'm sure they will be able to see through the fog surrounding them eventually.
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Happy Easter
Watched a lot of the Masters too ~ getting excited for golf season coming up. I remember when my son used to golf, I wonder if he still does. He had his own set of clubs and was on a league with two of his friends from his baseball team. The same baseball team that his friend's dad and I used to coach. We even golfed on the same nights. I would drop him and his friends off at their league on my way to mine. My son and I also used to drive down in Naples to golf with his uncles, cousins and grandfather. He loved driving the golf cart around Reservoir Creek. I still go there, my Uncle Gene works there. I wonder if my son still plays, maybe with his Grandfather or Uncle. He was pretty good back then, sure he's even better now. I would love to take him golfing. Son, if you want to go golfing over spring break, or any time, just call. You know how to reach me, the number is and always will be the same, although it appears your phone has that number blocked, so you may need to use a different phone to make the call. Love and miss you very much ~ hope you had a nice Easter!
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