I saw a photo of my daughter recently. She was wearing a sweatshirt and necklace that I bought her as a gift for her birthday. I was very excited to see this, because I haven’t had a relationship with my daughter, or my son, since early 2008. I thought, “she can’t be that mad at me if she’s wearing the gifts I sent her.”
My excitement was squashed when a friend of mine asked if I thought she knew the gifts were from me. This thought hadn't occurred to me. I thought “no, my ex wouldn’t do that”, but then again, I never thought she’d make good on her promise that if anything ever happened to our marriage I would never see my children again. I stayed in a loveless marriage just to be with my kids. I would be lying if I said I didn’t feel disappointed and manipulated.
So, I’ve started this blog in hopes that my children will see it and know how much I love and miss them ~ always have and always will. I will never ever give up on them, and my heart and my door will always be open and waiting, no questions asked. And speaking of questions, maybe reading this will cause them to question some of the things they have heard, or not heard, or been led to believe. They are smart kids, I'm sure they will be able to see through the fog surrounding them eventually.
Friday, April 20, 2012
Sweet 16
Wishing her a fantastic day and hope she has a lot of fun tonite and over her "birthday weekend" ~ maybe she'll have a slumber party at her house with her girlfriends. Would love to be there to celebrate with her, but I guess I'll just have to wait for her to see thru the fog surrounding her and want me around. I will always be here waiting with open arms and lots of love. The whole family sends their love and birthday wishes! Happy Sweet 16 Sweetheart!
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
April 2012
How about them Mets! 4-0! Hope my son is catching the games and enjoying spring break. Call me if you'd like to grab some lunch, or golf, or a movie, or just chat. Love you both very much ♥
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Happy Easter
Watched a lot of the Masters too ~ getting excited for golf season coming up. I remember when my son used to golf, I wonder if he still does. He had his own set of clubs and was on a league with two of his friends from his baseball team. The same baseball team that his friend's dad and I used to coach. We even golfed on the same nights. I would drop him and his friends off at their league on my way to mine. My son and I also used to drive down in Naples to golf with his uncles, cousins and grandfather. He loved driving the golf cart around Reservoir Creek. I still go there, my Uncle Gene works there. I wonder if my son still plays, maybe with his Grandfather or Uncle. He was pretty good back then, sure he's even better now. I would love to take him golfing. Son, if you want to go golfing over spring break, or any time, just call. You know how to reach me, the number is and always will be the same, although it appears your phone has that number blocked, so you may need to use a different phone to make the call. Love and miss you very much ~ hope you had a nice Easter!
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Heritage Music Festival
Some bright beautiful flowers for my bright beautiful girl for her performances this weekend with her school friends. Enjoy ~ we all love you!
UPDATE: They got 2nd place and a gold medal ~ way to go girls, I'm so proud of my incredibly talented and beautiful daughter for living her dream! Daddy loves and misses you honey, will always be here for you and your brother ~ xox
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Happy St. Patty's Day
I took a whole ton of pictures, this one reminded me of when my children's mother and I used to take the kids to the parade. Wasn't so many years ago when this was my son, on my shoulders ~ what a cutie!
And as the great weather continues, I hope my kids are getting out there and especially enjoying their new home and yard. Maybe they have a deck to sit on and a BBQ to fire up and grill dinners with their mom and grandparents. My kids loved to eat out on the back deck at our house in the summer. Get out there and enjoy life kids!
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Happy Valentine's Day!
I would like them to know, and the reason for this blog is so they know, that their family and friends will wait for them, and always be there for them ~ no matter what, no matter how long, no matter how painful, no matter the tall tales that are told, no questions asked ~ when they are ready to be whole again. We all love you Bucko and CeeCee. Hope you got my cards and had a wonderful day! xox love, Dad
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Super Bowl Time!
Football was always a big deal in our family. My son has been playing since he was old enough to run and my daughter was on the cheer squad for years. We spent our Sundays with the kids growing up running from game to game because they would sometimes be playing at different fields. We did our best to see it all. I don’t think my daughter cheers any more, she’s moved on to other interests, but my son is still playing and enjoying football. Hopefully he’ll get to play on the high school team next year.
I’ve got my Giant’s Bear and I’m ready for the game. It was a gift from my kids for my 39th birthday. I keep him in my office, but this weekend he’s home with me for the party. Go Giants!!!! I’m right there cheering with you, kids….love you both very much, enjoy the game!
UPDATE: What...a....game!!! Awesome game, all the way through. G-Men all the way. I'm sure my son is just coming out of his skin. Tried to text him, but it appears my phone is blocked...bummer. My dad called me the second the game was over, was so cool! Giants rock, paint the town bluuuuuuuue!!!







