Valentines Day - last year I got to visit with my children for 20 minutes in a restaurant. I think my ex scheduled the visit for this day intentionally to try to ruin my day. No day that I get to see and visit with my children is ever ruined, no matter how angry they are towards me. And angry they were. My daughter yelled at me and my son swore. After they left, the waitress felt so bad overhearing my experience that her manager decided not to charge me for the food I ordered. The visit was very brief, but a step in the right direction. My children need opportunities to tell me how they are feeling so they can begin to heal their anger and we can begin to repair our relationship. I was told my daughter wanted to see me again, and the courts ordered it, but her law guardian told me I needed to work with her therapist, and her therapist didn't return any of my numerous phone calls. Exactly how was I supposed to make this happen for my daughter when no one will cooperate with me or take my calls? This year I called and left my children a message, but as usual did not get a return call. I sent them a package with cards and some small gifts. No return calls about that either.
I had an accident on my snowmobile. I hit a deer and a tree, had a concussion and broke 5 ribs. I was in the hospital for several days and in a lot of pain. My father called my ex to inform her. She was heartless and disrespectful to my father. I don't think she will tell my children that I was injured. They did not call me to see how I was doing. It's times like this that one realizes how pointless and painful all this fighting and anger really is. And how sad it is that our children are caught in the middle. It's okay to be mad and angry at each other, that happens with spouses and divorce, but why must we drag our children through this? They should be allowed to love their mother and their father. It's not healthy to hate a part of yourself.
