JeffsKids.Com: March 2012

I saw a photo of my daughter recently. She was wearing a sweatshirt and necklace that I bought her as a gift for her birthday. I was very excited to see this, because I haven’t had a relationship with my daughter, or my son, since early 2008. I thought, “she can’t be that mad at me if she’s wearing the gifts I sent her.”

My excitement was squashed when a friend of mine asked if I thought she knew the gifts were from me. This thought hadn't occurred to me. I thought “no, my ex wouldn’t do that”, but then again, I never thought she’d make good on her promise that if anything ever happened to our marriage I would never see my children again. I stayed in a loveless marriage just to be with my kids. I would be lying if I said I didn’t feel disappointed and manipulated.

So, I’ve started this blog in hopes that my children will see it and know how much I love and miss them ~ always have and always will. I will never ever give up on them, and my heart and my door will always be open and waiting, no questions asked. And speaking of questions, maybe reading this will cause them to question some of the things they have heard, or not heard, or been led to believe. They are smart kids, I'm sure they will be able to see through the fog surrounding them eventually.

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Happy St. Patty's Day

Hope my part-Irish kids had a fun St. Patty's Day! It's such a rare opportunity to enjoy the city parade in 70 degree weather, hope they had a chance to see it and have a great afternoon with their cousins or friends. I look forward to the parade every year and had a ball with a group of my golfing friends and their wives, husbands, kids and grandkids.

I took a whole ton of pictures, this one reminded me of when my children's mother and I used to take the kids to the parade. Wasn't so many years ago when this was my son, on my shoulders ~ what a cutie!

And as the great weather continues, I hope my kids are getting out there and especially enjoying their new home and yard. Maybe they have a deck to sit on and a BBQ to fire up and grill dinners with their mom and grandparents. My kids loved to eat out on the back deck at our house in the summer. Get out there and enjoy life kids!